Final Thoughts


A long time ago, I used to believe in a God and a Jesus Christ. I thought they were kind of cool really. Then came that night, about 34 years ago now, that all of this changed. That was the night that Fr Leon Gaulin, priest at St Thomas More parish in Durham New Hampshire decided he was going to show me the True God and Jesus Christ.

See I also grew up believing that God and Jesus loved us children. I remember anyone saying that if you harmed a hair on our heads, well it would be better if you tied a huge rock around your neck and throw yourself into the deepest of lakes than to harm a single hair on our heads. Gee what kind of hellish punishment awaits someone whom would harm a child? I came to find out. NONE!!!

ZIP, ZILCH, NADA, ZERO, NONE. NOPE NOT GONNA HAPPEN, ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE ONE OF GODS OR JESUS CHRISTS PRIESTS AND THEY ARE RAPING YOU, OR THE LEADERS OF THEIR CHURCH WHOM AIDED IN OUR RAPES BY THEIR MOVING THESE PEDOPHILE PERVERTS AROUND.

I admit, I tried, oh how I tried, to believe in them again. I remember going to St Mary’s Episcopal…..nope no God there, nor Jesus Christ….just a bunch of two faced hypocrites…trying to one-upmanship each other.  I tried with the Baptists too. Hell I even went to Bangor Theological Seminary to study the Word of God and become a preacher. But nope….nothing there either…..seems every place I went to look for this God and this Jesus….they were not there…just a reasonable facsimile dressed up in religious robes spewing bullshit. About how God loves us all. About how Jesus loves us all. About how God will NEVER give you more than you can handle and bear and if he does…well then come to me all you whom are heavy laden with burdens, lay them at my feet and I shall take care of them….yeah right….just like a lawyer whom was supposed to take care of my case against the rapist did eh?

Then I learn that God and Jesus Christ has been just as much a hypocrite as their followers are…well most of those whom claim they follow……see apparently God and Jesus says they abhor evil. They hate evil, especially evil done to children…again and again…they state this in their supposed Word of God book called the Bible. Yet each and every day…thousands upon thousands of children are tortured, raped, beaten, murdered, go to bed starving, are sold into sex slavery for perverts. Or they are raped and abused big time by those whom proclaim that they are the moral leaders of the churches of this religion. Thousands upon thousands of those, whom dare call themselves priests, ministers, pastors, rabbis, etc…you know those holy people labels….have raped and destroyed children’s and teens lives.

Don’t believe me? Go to this link and check the cases….thousands upon thousands upon thousands of those whom proclaim to be God’s and Jesus Christs moral leaders and teachers raping and abusing children…and of course….God and Jesus…whom are supposed to love, defend and protect the children…turn a blind eye and a deaf ear to it all.

http://m.dailykos.com/story/2011/11/14/1036483/-For-People-Following-Clergy-Sex-Abuse-Here-Is-A-Current-List

So how can I explain my reasoning for what I am about to do in a way that people can really understand?

I could go the blunt way…I HAVE FUCKING HAD IT…I AM DONE BEGGING FOR A GOD AND A JESUS CHRIST TO HELP ME…THEN TURN AROUND AND SEE THEM NOT. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF GOD AND JESUS CHRIST AND MOST OF THEIR FOLLOWERS BEING DEAD ASSED HYPOCRITES. GOD AND JESUS ARE SUPPOSED TO ABHOR EVIL, PUNISH THE WICKED AND BLESS THE GOOD…BUT INSTEAD THEY DO THE EXACT FUCKING OPPOSITE. THEY ARE HYPOCRITES AND THEN FOR BEING HYPOCRITES…I AM SUPPOSED TO BOW DOWN AND WORSHIP THEM, THANK THEM FOR BEING RAPED, ETC…AND LOVE THEM FOR IT….BUT THEN TURN AROUND AND HOPE AND PRAY THEY WILL GIVE ME A BREAK? FUCK THAT.

I could go this way….a way to truly explain it.

I met this man named Louis Romano. Seemed like a good guy standing up for priest abuse victims. Came out with a book called Intercession. Now Louis was a big cheering fan of mine, especially with my standing up to that disgusting, degenerate defender of Pedophile Pimps and Pedophile Priests, Bill Pig Face Donohue, President of the Catholic League for the Defense and Protection of the Pedophile Pimps and Priests of the Unholy Roman Catholic Church. He would tell me when I would get beaten up pretty bad…don’t stop…I support you…if you ever need anything get a hold of me.

Now it was nice that when I did get arrested for the Donohue crap he contributed some to the bail money…$50.00. So there I was…being used like a punching dummy. losing everything because of the other Roman Catholic piggies attacking me and destroying my life…and I went to him for help and his most infamous words….I will never forget. This is what he offered for help.

“Well at least you can check into a mental hospital, at least you will have a roof over your head. But hey…I know it is hard, but don’t stop fighting Donohue, I am behind you every step of the way.”

Yuppers….just like God and Jesus Christ…..they are supposedly behind me in fighting this evil, they supposedly abhor anyone whom harms even a single hair on the head of a child, they supposedly cannot stand even the sight of evil, and roundly condemn hypocrites and the Pharisee and Sadducee. So you fight this evil and what does God and Jesus Christ do when you beg them for help?

They fucking tell you to go check into a mental hospital.

Nope in my opinion, from this long fucking life of pain, suffering, poverty, injustice, and pure, unadulterated evil? God and Jesus are either not there…they are fake, or they are there and they just do not give a shit…or this God and Jesus are actually the Satan and Evil Ones and prove it by turning their backs on the children….while defending those pedophile pimps and priests whom did this evil to us.

So again…I am supposed to get down on my knees and thank this God and this Jesus Christ, for my rapes, for my abuses, for my losses, for my injustices, for my poverty, for my fucked up life….and I am not supposed to get mad…because hey…God and Jesus works in mysterious ways and always have a plan laid out for you….so if your a child let me clue you in on something.

If someone mentions God or Jesus Christ to you, especially a priest, a minister, a preacher, a rabbi or others?

RUN KID….IT IS A TRAP….THESE PERVERTS ARE ONLY TRYING TO PROGRAM YOU…SO THAT WHEN THEY RAPE YOU….THEIR GOD AND JESUS CHRIST CAN SIT THERE UP IN HEAVEN FILMING IT SO THEY CAN SHOW IT AT THE NEXT PORNO PARTY…BECAUSE NOTHING GETS A GOD AND A JESUS MORE FUCKING HARD THAN THE SCREAMS OF CHILDREN BEING RAPED, BEING BEATEN, BEING TORTURED, CRYING OUT FOR THEIR HELP…BUT TURNING THEIR FUCKING BACKS ON THEIR CRIES…AND PROTECTING THE FUCKING EVIL SCUM WHOM ARE DOING THIS.

SO FUCK IT…GOD AND JESUS…..YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELVES…I AM OUTTA HERE…I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE, COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY REJECT….YOUR LIFE YOU HAVE SUPPOSEDLY GIVEN TO ME. YOU CAN NOW TAKE THIS AND SHOVE IT UP YOUR PEDOPHILE, CHILD ABUSING LOVING FUCKING ASSES.

YOU DO NOT WANT TO HELP ME? FINE. FUCK YOU…GO HELP THE RAPISTS OF CHILDREN BECAUSE THAT IS ALL YOU ARE FUCKING GOOD FOR AND YOU HAVE PROVEN IT TIME, AND TIME, AND TIME, AND TIME, AND TIME AND TIME AND TIME AND TIME AND TIME AGAIN.

YOU WANT ME TO LOVE AND WORSHIP YOU FOR THIS? FUCK YOU.

SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS…BUT FIRST REMOVE THE FUCKING PRIESTS DICK FROM YOUR ASS.

I have also learned you never stand up to God, Jesus Christ or their Pedophile Pimps and Priests or any of their religious holy people whom rape children or assault children, or beat children, or torture children…because as it also says in the bible

‘SUFFER THE LITTLE CHILDREN THAT THEY MAY COME UNTO ME.”
Fuck you God…Jesus…we have suffered enough and we certainly are not coming unto you…because you have proven to us again and again and again, you would rather defend, bless and protect the scumbag Pedophile Pimps and Priests than you would those whom they raped and destroyed.

And you say your the lovers, defenders and protectors of children?

Yeah fucking right and I got a bridge to sell ya.

But hey…that is ok….you have shown me this again and again and again…and now….you can fucking shove it up your fucking pedophile loving ass…because I REFUSE to live under this tyranny of your shit any longer. Go make one of those fat fucking Cardinals like Timothy Dolan starve for a while…he looks like a fucking piggy.

About victimsofrapebythercc

The Catechism offers a clear moral teaching: "Rape is the forcible violation of the sexual intimacy of another person. It does injury to justice and charity. Rape deeply wounds the respect, freedom, and physical and moral integrity to which every person has a right. It causes grave damage that can mark the victim for life. It is always an intrinsically evil act. Graver still is the rape of children committed by parents (incest) or those responsible for the education of the children entrusted to them." (no. 2356) Note that rape is "an intrinsically evil act," meaning that it is evil at its very root, nothing justifies it, and it is objectively a mortal sin. An evil act was done against me, a crime, by a priest at St Thomas More Parish in Durham, NH. An evil and a crime I will no longer keep silent about. Those who perpetrate crimes against children, especially those of the Roman Catholic Church, should all be punished for their crimes against children. Anything less would be criminal.

Posted on June 16, 2014, in Abusive Nuns, Berlin Daily Sun, Bill Donohue, Catholic League, Catholic League for Religious and Civil Rights, Child Sex Abuse, Christianity, Christians, Clergy Abuse, Clergy Sex Abuse, Congregation for the Doctrine of Faith, Dallas Charter, Father Leon Gaulin, Manchester Diocese, Manchester Diocese of the Roman Catholic Church, Manchester NH Diocese, Pedophile, Pedophile Priests, Pope Benedict XVI, Pope Francis, Pope John Paul II, Pope Paul VI, Priest Child Sex Abuse, Religion, Roman Catholic Church, Roman Catholic Church Sex Abuse, St Thomas Moore Parish Durham NH, St Thomas More, St Thomas More Durham NH, St Thomas More Parish, Uncategorized, Vatican, William A Donohue and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 3 Comments.

  1. i was once where you are now. the healing was able to begin when i found a place more beautiful than the empty hole that was my soul. helping others will give you some peace.

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