The Double Edged Sword of a priest rape victim

What a lot of people who hear about us victims of priest rape do not seem to understand is that this is a complete and total double edged sword.

When you are bought up in the Roman Catholic Church you are taught many things presented by the church. Their teachings about homosexuality is well known. It is considered a sin and evil. Those who practice homosexuality are considered disordered and abnormal by the church teachings on it.

Yet how do we male rape victims of priests get over what happened to us in relation to the teachings of the RCC on homosexuality? If you really look at the teachings, even with what happened to me, I would still be considered a homosexual. Even though it was rape, I still laid with a man and had sex with him. According to the church’s teachings I was evil and disordered.

It took 37 years for me to find the answer. 37 years of condemning myself over this. 37 years of hating myself over this.

This pedophile priest, this rapist of young men, was the one who is guilty of this evil, not me.

I have come to find out a lot about pedophiles since. They have an extreme sickness that they feel only sex with children can satisfy. They are also extreme control freaks. Evidence by most of us victims of priest rape apparently telling the same story. I have never talked to other victims of priest rape until recently. Yet the stories seem to be the same over and over again. The priest using some sort of “sin” we victims do, then the priest using that “sin” as a means and an avenue to rape us. Most of these priests, knowing the teachings of the church, then use the pains of hell to scare us victims into never revealing what they did to us. Also the tried and true method of who is going to believe us victims in the first place.

Those whom I have spoken with too have a hard time reconciling what happened to them with the teachings of homosexuality by the church.

What I have found all of us victims must learn though is that we are NOT homosexual simply because we had some sort of reaction when a priest was raping us. Even if we come to find out we are homosexual, we are not evil, nor disordered either according to the church’s teachings.

The evil from all of this comes from the priests, the leaders of the church who covered this up, and most especially the most perverted of them all, his unholiness the papal bullshitter pope benedict. When I read his christmas address he gave to his bishops and leaders of the church in 2010 I knew this pervert just did not understand or get it. How can any person who calls themselves men of god even allow the words he spewed out of his sewer pie hole to come out? How can this sick and twisted leader justify his assertions that child pornography is considered normal by most people and that sex between an adult and a child is not evil?

These priests, these leaders, this sick and twisted pervert pope, need to really visit with us victims. They need to truly sit down and hear our stories. They need to hear this kind of dialogue, the harm their perverted priests did to us and the effects of their lousy leaders, who are more concerned with covering their asses than they are in fixing this problem and doing right by victims of priest rape.

I have now come to the point where I realize I was not a homosexual. Yet the teachings of the church, the rape by this priest, the stupidity and evil perpetrated by the leaders who covered this up….still haunt me and my nightmares and probably will until I take my last breath.


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The Catechism offers a clear moral teaching: "Rape is the forcible violation of the sexual intimacy of another person. It does injury to justice and charity. Rape deeply wounds the respect, freedom, and physical and moral integrity to which every person has a right. It causes grave damage that can mark the victim for life. It is always an intrinsically evil act. Graver still is the rape of children committed by parents (incest) or those responsible for the education of the children entrusted to them." (no. 2356) Note that rape is "an intrinsically evil act," meaning that it is evil at its very root, nothing justifies it, and it is objectively a mortal sin. An evil act was done against me, a crime, by a priest at St Thomas More Parish in Durham, NH. An evil and a crime I will no longer keep silent about. Those who perpetrate crimes against children, especially those of the Roman Catholic Church, should all be punished for their crimes against children. Anything less would be criminal.

Posted on March 18, 2012, in Religion, Roman Catholic Church, Roman Catholic Church Sex Abuse, Roman Catholic Church teachings on homosexuality and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. Thank you for sharing those thoughts on a very sensitive subject. It is a shame how predators can hide behind a religious establishment and be almost “immune” to the harm and devastation they cause other people. The victims of what I consider an “unpardonable and unforgivable act” must cope with the guilt and stigma of the event(s) while also being subjected to the religious shame and confused feelings after the event(s).

    Something is dreadfully wrong with our world…………….

    I did not comment on your post to bash the established church but WRONG IS WRONG no matter what organization either supports or (more likely) provides protection for the criminals. When mass rape took place during past wars, ‘some’ of these perpetrators were brought to justice as “War Criminals”. The church should not be above the Law of the Land…………….PERIOD.

    I am a Satanist and perhaps that will cause people to prejudge my comment here but my feelings are heart-felt.

    I feel for the victims and their families who have (and will in the future) endured such a betrayal of trust, innocence and spiritual belief. In the end, they are the ones who will pay for the sins of the church……


    • Thank you Aleister. I don’t care if you are a Satanist or worship Twinkies. I don’t care if you do bash the christian religion. After reading the Unholiness the Papal Bullshitter words and now Cardinal Dolan’s words, I am going to war against this church of perverted priests and leaders.

      • I am more than happy to support you in that endeavor!


      • Welcome then to the War and the Battle against the Criminal Roman Catholic Pedophile Priest and Pimp Leaders. The Papal Bullshitter, Pope Benedict Arnold, The Pedophile Pimp Cardinal Timothy Dolan, the Pedophile Pimp Bishop Thomas McCormack, the Pedophile Pimps Apologizers Bill Donohue and James Salt and the rest of them just do not know what they are in for or who I am that they are fighting.

        I will NEVER surrender until I see these animals and perverts rotting in their grave and knowing that their Lord and Savior Jesus Christ is sending them to the 5th and 6th Level of Dante’s Hell for all eternity. I would love to be there to see the look on their nasty, evil pig faces when they realize where they are going and there is nothing they can do about it.

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